Saturday, June 16, 2018

Happy Father's Day!




Father’s Day is the day we all celebrate and remember our fathers. Our dads, our daddies. For me it is always a sad day. I try to get through it for my husband and sons, but my thoughts are on my Daddy.
I hope that each of you has fond memories of your father. I hope you can remember him with love and recall the times in your life when he demonstrated that love even if he wasn’t a demonstrative person. I hope your children have a grandfather they can love with their whole hearts.
To the fathers who may read this I say this: Salute!


FATHER’S DAY
My Father, my Daddy has been gone since November 2, 1987. He was 60 years old. I still love him and miss him. I still find myself wishing with all my heart that I could talk to him again. I want to tell you about him. 

Emmett Eugene Bennett
4-11-1927-11-2-1987

(Left) Hobbs, NM 1951 (Right) Daddy holding me approx. 1 yr. old


Daddy had blue eyes that twinkled every time he smiled, when he laughed his eyes sparkled and little wrinkles in the corners lifted like smiles. His laugh began in his toes and rumbled forth in a guffaw that made anyone within earshot laugh right back. He had a gold tooth that gleamed when he smiled.
My love of horses began when I was about six months old and he held me on a black and white paint pony traversing our Hobbs, NM neighborhood with a photographer. Or, maybe it was when I was two and went to Western Auto with him and he put me on a red and black wooden spring horse. The story goes that he had to buy the horse to get me off of it. I believe that tale. Maybe it was when I was about 5 and another black and white paint pony was led through the area with a photographer. I learned several years after he died that he cried every year during my childhood on my birthday and at Christmas because the only thing on my list was a horse. To this day, I love horses with an almost obsession-like heart.

One time we went on a vacation to Colorado. I was about seven. We stayed at a motel advertising a heated pool. I only knew how to dog paddle. Daddy picked me up and threw me in to the deep end. The water was so cold I couldn’t catch my breath or swim. His goal was to teach me how to properly swim. He gave the motel manager a piece of his mind. He apologized for years about that. I love the water and I can swim just fine.

When I was 11 we went to a company Christmas party. Daddy was a mechanic for Halliburton. I still believed in Santa. I’ll never forget how the stinky, old mechanic’s garage had been transformed into a winter wonderland. A big red chair sat in a corner with a large red sack sitting beside it. Packages peeked from the top. Santa came! I was so excited, but when my name was called to get a gift I noticed it was wrapped in paper like we had at home. And, Santa had blue eyes like Daddy, a gold tooth like Daddy, and he was missing half of one of his fingers like Daddy. After the party I told Mama what I saw and asked her about Santa. She confirmed what I really knew. Daddy was Santa.
When I was a testy teenager and in high school Daddy would give me 50 cents, or sometimes a dollar, to drag main. Once again I found out years after he died that he was giving me his lunch/break money. 

As I grew up Daddy was always there for me. Through a first marriage that should never have happened. The loss of my first born baby. The marriage to Frank and our two sons. He loved being a grandfather. All of his grandchildren loved him fervently. He would really love his great grandchildren.

Daddy’s dream to move back to Oklahoma from New Mexico happened at Thanksgiving 1969. He and my mother moved into the old Bennett homestead. The home where he was born and raised. He died on the front porch of that home as did his brother A.W. who died of a heart attack at the age of 21 and his brother Dale who died at the age of 18 of an accidental gunshot wound.

 

Hope you enjoyed today's post.


Until next time, Journey On!

Love,
Nona

Monday, May 14, 2018

Happy Mother's Day!



Wandering and Wondering with Words May newsletter and a tribute to mother’s.


For me, May is always the month I can’t stop thinking of my mother and her love. She died in March, 1997 at the age of 65 and I miss her everyday. I think of the things I wish I had done, things I wish I had said, things I want to tell her. I think of how happy she would be with her great-grandchildren. She was adventurous and lively. Lovely and down-home. Strict, but free with the willingness to bend the rules.


Ruth Eileen McGregor Bennett
March 12, 1932-March 26, 1997

I realize that not every son or daughter was blessed to have parents as wonderful as mine. But, we all have mothers. They deserve to be honored. Those who have passed away. Those who raised their own children in the best way they knew how. Those who are experiencing being a grandparent.  Those who have lost a child to death, a baby to disease, SIDS, or stillbirth, a miscarriage. Those who are fostering children in need of love more than anything. They are all mothers . . .They are all deserving of the title of mother.

The short story included in this newsletter, DECEPTIVE BEGINNINGS, was written as fiction, but truly is fact. My mother actually did these things to meet Ken. The dialogue was invented, but knowing her as I did it was easy to write. I knew her habits such as rolling her hair every day, smoking, cooking. They are real. She and Ken enjoyed a close relationship for almost four years before she died. She visited the coast and loved the tide pools. They went to Las Vegas. They went to northern California. They went on long drives without a specific destination. They had plans to visit the Grand Canyon, but that wasn’t meant to be.

Ken was with me in the last days. He said good-bye to her the morning she died, then made coffee knowing the scent would awaken me. He simply told me “it’s time.” I stood on one side of the hospital bed looming in her tiny apartment, Ken stood on the other. I, the nurse, had one finger on her pulse. I felt the last beat and heard the last breath escape from her lips.


                                     
DECEPTIVE BEGINNING

            Ruth took matters into her own hands. She sat at the kitchen table frowning at her aging image in the small mirror propped against a glass of water. She dipped a rat-tail comb in the water, dampened her hair, and rolled the dark blonde and gray strands one section at a time, anchoring the curlers with pink sticks. She touched the wrinkles on the outer corners of her eyes. Why didn’t I wear sunscreen when I worked outside? Why didn’t I quit smoking years ago. Damn wrinkles. She moved to make the double crust for a cherry pie. Within minutes she had a perfect pie in the oven. She smiled, remembering how the prize-winning pies she made were always in demand by family and friends in Oklahoma. Now, in California.
            As the pie baked Ruth dressed in her favorite cobalt blue silk blouse and black slacks. Tabu Granada lipstick brought a bright splash of pink to her face. She dabbed Shalimar perfume on her neck and wrists and styled her hair with the signature swoop at the neckline. Satisfied she looked as good as possible she left the bathroom. 
Her shy neighbor, Ken, cleaned the front and back windows on her car every morning before she left for work. The two of them habitually passed in the courtyard. She never failed to offer a happy hello and comment on the weather. How much could anyone say about the weather in Bakersfield? It rarely changed except by temperature. Ken answered in monosyllables and smiled, but he rarely maintained eye contact for more than a split second before his face flushed. Yet, she was lonely and wanted to get to know this tall, bald man with eyes the color of the California sky. She devised a plan.
            Taking a deep breath she left her apartment and pretended to lock the front door. Ken sat in a rocking chair on his front porch. Ruth swallowed, rubbed her stomach to squelch the rumbling threatening to make her throw up, and walked over to set the deception in motion. “Good morning, Ken. I need your help, if you aren’t too busy.” Ruth’s knees were weak and she shook.
            Ken stood and stepped closer. “What’s wrong? You look upset.”
            “Well, I locked myself out of my apartment. And, my car. Could you come to the back patio and see if you can get the sliding glass door open?” Ruth fidgeted with the strap on her purse.
            Ken took his keys from the pocket of his slacks. “The office can unlock it for you. I’ll drive you over there.”
            Darn. Her plan wasn’t working. She needed a cigarette. “I know. But, they charge fifteen dollars. I’m embarrassed to say it, but I can’t afford it.”
            Ken nodded. “In that case, I’ll see what I can do.”
            Walking side-by-side, Ruth and Ken crossed the yard and went around to the patio. Ken jiggled and jerked on the gate handle. It didn’t budge.
            “There’s a board loose on the side of the gate. Maybe we could pull that out far enough to reach the latch.” Ruth pulled on the board.
            Ken took the board from Ruth and opened a space large enough for her to reach through and release the latch.
            The board sprang back into place when he released it.
            Ruth glanced around, she was proud of her small patio. A table brightened by a floral tablecloth with an umbrella providing shade, and two chairs occupied a corner. Plants and flowers in pots mimicking her garden in Oklahoma brought a sense of solitude and beauty to the space. Mini roses and honeysuckle climbing a trellis scented the space with sweetness. An old ladder held containers of happy-faced petunias.
            “Your patio is nice, Ruth.” Ken leaned over to smell the roses and honeysuckle.
            “Thank you. It reminds me of home.”
            Ken tugged on the sliding glass door. It was partially locked, but with a quick tug it slid open. “Ruth, I don’t think your door was locked securely. Maintenance needs to look at it.”
            Stifling a giggle behind her hand and sucking in a fake shocked breath she said. “That isn’t good. I’ll be more careful. Come on in.”
            Ken looked at the plants, the ground, and the sky. Anywhere but at her. It had been years since he had been around a woman who interested him and made him want to know more about her. “Oh, I don’t know. You probably have several things to do.”
            Ruth took his elbow. “Come in. I don’t have anything planned. I’m off today.”
            Ken followed her into the dining area. A cherry pie with steam still coming from slits in the crust sat in the center of the table. Fresh brewed coffee filled the space with its welcoming aroma. “Smells good. And, looks delicious.”
            Without missing a beat Ruth thanked him, poured two cups of coffee and cut two pieces of pie. She gestured for him to sit. “Do you need sugar or cream?”
            “Neither. Is something going on?” Ken took a bite of the warm pie. He moaned, then laughed when she sweetened her coffee with about four grains of sugar.
            Ruth lifted her cup in a salute. “Just enough to take the bitterness out. I need to drop this charade. I’m not a deceptive person. Well . . . the truth is. . .  I’ve been wanting to meet you and actually talk to you about more than the weather. I gather you’re shy, and I wonder why you always clean the windows on my car. The rest is, well, what I need to tell you is . . . I wasn’t really locked out. I’m very cautious, even paranoid, about being locked out of my car or home. I have extra keys in my purse and the wheel well of my car.” Ruth looked down and sipped her coffee.
            She glanced up to see Ken’s face flush. When he cleared his throat she spoke up. “I apologize if I’ve overstepped my bounds.”
            “No, it’s fine. I’m flattered. You planned this? Did you know about the board in the fence?”
            Ruth cleared her throat and nodded. “I not only knew about the board, I actually loosened it myself. I removed a few nails.”
            Ken shook his head. “I have to admit, your creativity is impressive. I’ve never known anyone to go to such lengths to talk to another person.”
            Ruth stood, picked up the plates, and put them in the sink. She carried the coffee pot to the table, topped off their cups and sat down. “I couldn’t think of a way to talk to you. More than just in passing. I’ve told you I take care of an elderly couple, but I am off every Tuesday.”
            Ken lifted his cup and sipped the coffee and asked. “I’ve seen a man younger than us come by for breakfast several times a week. I thought, I wondered--"
            Ruth’s full-throated laugh caused her to choke on the coffee. She coughed into her fist then held her hand up in a wait-just-a-moment gesture. When the coughing abated she said, “Oh, goodness, that’s my nephew. I moved here almost a year ago to take care of my brothers. One died before I made the move, but I still have a brother living here and another one in Texas. I also have several nieces and nephews I never had a chance to get to know. Frank comes to check on me. I feed him biscuits and gravy.”
            Ken’s face reddened from the collar of his blue shirt to the top of his bald head. “May I ask a personal question?”
            He sure blushes easily. It’s kind of sweet. “Of course.” Ruth smoothed the hair at her temple.
            “What happened, to make you come here? All the way from Oklahoma.”
            Unexpected and surprising tears filled her eyes, she blinked to stem them and dabbed at the corners with a napkin. “My husband died almost eight years ago. I found out right away that I had to go to work. There was no extra money. No insurance. My brother paid the funeral expenses. We had a one hundred acre family farm. At first I worked as a waitress, but it was more than I could physically manage. So, I began doing home care for the elderly. My daughter mentioned in passing that I should take a break and visit my California family. That was Thanksgiving, I was up all night thinking. By the time the sun rose I had decided to move here. I had nothing left. Both of my children lived far away from me. So, I sold the farm. I got here in April and I like it. What about you? Are you from here?”
            “I’m a retired truck driver, that’s why I clean the windows on your car. I know how important it is to have good visibility on the road. When I was driving I enjoyed the runs I made here. I’m originally from Minnesota, the warm weather here was a plus for me. That, and the agriculture fascinated me. There is so much synchronicity in the fields. Planting seasons, gathering the fruits and vegetables, and shipping them out has to be done with precision.”
            “I think it would be interesting to see the management of the farms. I had a large garden back in Oklahoma so I had to pay attention to the weather and seasons.  The fresh vegetables I had available were so much better than produce in a local store. What else did you like about Bakersfield?”
            “It’s nice being less than a four hour drive to the coast, the Redwoods, the mountains, and Las Vegas. There is so much to see around here.”
            Ruth grew quiet. For the first time in ages she was speechless. She was frightened. Here she sat in her own home flirting. Flirting! She was 61 years old for Christ’s sake. A widow. She finally asked the question she really wanted an answer to. “Are you single?”
            Ken steepled his fingers beneath his chin and smiled. “Yes. I am. As a matter-of-fact I’ve never been married.”
            Ruth put her hands on her lap and clenched them together. Never married. What kind of man has never been married in this day and age? “I like the idea of having so many things to see and places to go so near. But, I haven’t seen the coast. Not yet. I haven’t been to the mountains, but on clear days I can see them from my living room window. I guess I’ve never been anywhere to speak of. I lived in west Texas and New Mexico when I was raising my kids. We did come out here on vacation once in the late 1950’s. When my husband retired in 1969 we moved to the family farm where he grew up.” Ruth sighed as the dreams she had held close to her heart surfaced. Dreams to travel and experience different things. Saying it out loud resurrected her desire for adventure.
Ruth took Ken’s cup when he scooted it to the center of the table. He had to speak up or he might lose the nerve to ask Ruth if she was interested in going for a ride. “Have you seen the windmills at Tehachapi? Would you like to take a quick drive out there? There’s also a railroad tunnel near there.”
Ruth clapped her hands. “Yes, I would love that. I’ve never been there, but I’ve read about them in the paper.”
Ken stood and pulled Ruth’s chair out for her. “OK. I have a quick errand I need to run. Can you be ready in about an hour? How do you feel about having a late lunch at an old-fashioned diner?”
“Sounds like fun. I’ll be waiting. Thank you.” Ruth walked Ken the few feet to the front door and opened it. She watched him cross the courtyard, admiring his long stride. The feeling that life was beginning anew made Ruth’s heart soar.
Adventure, companionship, and, maybe even love awaited.
           
Hope you enjoyed the story and your Mother's Day was Blessed and Happy!
Until next time, Journey Onward!
Love,
Nona